Wednesday, July 22, 2009

I'm backkkkk!

Alright, I'm me again.
Feels W-O-N-D-E-R-F-U-L.
(Anything that was stressing me out is settled, under control or gone.)

Tomorrow is Diamond of Dreams @ The Royals stadium, 7-11 out on the field. Before then I'll be at Mix 93.3 with the Jason Grill Ultimate Tailgate. Then I'll make my way to Capital Grill to help with the V.I.P. party for the pre-D.O.D. Super busy. Super excited.

Still looking for an apt....

Still going to school...

Let's do this.
Ashley Nichole

Monday, July 20, 2009

I need to dance.

I have caught something. Yes, a horrible funk. Blahhhh. I can't write with this blockage. I just wish to return to my normal self within the next few days or so.... Dad always said, "Ashley, sometimes when it rains it's just going to pour." And thus it has been pouring non-stop into my little life with blank expressions and thoughts. I feel numb right now. This old-person day to day routine is monotonous. I just want to step forward and something always holds me back that is out of my control.

This is not me, I need more.

Ashley Nichole

Monday, July 13, 2009

Excuse me while I bitch...

For sometime I thought it was my "calling" to help people. Don't get me wrong this is very exciting to know my part in this thing we all call life, BUT as I go throughout living I find that I am only "helping" people who don't want help. So. I think to myself....What the HELL?!? Why wouldn't someone want to better their life? Why would someone want to constantly surround themselves with negativity? AND Why can't they see their self for the amazing person they could be? Beats me, and you know what? I'm done. I'm tired of beating myself up on a day-to-day basis trying figure out what I could do to help.

Lord forgive me, but this task that you have given me is rather impossible.

I guess this isn't a worthless task, and it's not impossible. I now know that more than most people that need your help will ask for it, and the ones that don't aren't ready. I guess I have learned that no matter how hard I try to "fix" someone... They can only fix themselves. I'm still here, and I'm not giving up on what I was put here for.

~Ashley Nichole