Family.

I never see you enough, but when I do I couldn't love you more.

-Ashley Nichole

Birth.day.

So tomorrow I will embark on another year of life.
There are a few things I would like to accomplish, there are things I'd like to embrace. For instance, this whole age thing; I can fight it all I want but it's inevitable. Year after year I will become older and older. (Wrinkles will occur and let's hope I keep the fat cells to a minimum.)
I will be 26 tomorrow. I will still be me, but better. I will be stronger and more adamant. I will try harder to get where I need to be in life, by my standards. I will not let peoples thoughts nor actions affect mine. I will take more time to help other people. I will accomplish my agenda, whatever it may be.

I will embrace this age thing. I will be proud of what I've done and where I've been.
It has made me who I am.
And I wouldn't be anyone else... but me.

Birth.day.
Standards.
Ashley Nichole

Child(ren).

I don't know why I feel like writing certain things at certain times, but it happens, like life.

To my child(ren) if I ever have any. 

Who am I?

Who am I to bring you into such uncertainty? I can only hold your hand for so long.

How will I tell you what it feels like to get your heart broken, multiple times again.

Why would I want to bring you into a world where you can feel so alive one day and the next your health may vanish and you are nothing to no one. 

How can I tell you everything will be alright, when I have no idea myself. 

How can I take proper care of you, if I don't exactly know 100% of how to take care of myself.

Dear child(ren), I want to tell you that life is beautiful, because in some ways it really is, but the dark is something that no one should ever have to feel.

It's so scary. 

The things people put them selves through. 

The pain and suffering. They're so scared and confused and lost, not to mention lonely.

They will do anything in their power to bring you down, don't let them.

Dear child(ren), I'm going to give you a few tips....

Be happy, no matter what. 

Focus on what makes you the happiest. 

Be who you are and never care about what anyone thinks of you. 

Always be polite and never take anyone for granted. 

Be honest. 

And although it may sound cheesy... If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all.

 Say please and thank you and be grateful for everything you're given. 

Respect your elders. 

Control your emotions, don't let them control you.

Laugh and do it often. 

Be a good friend. 

Remember, your body is a temple. 

Everything in moderation. 

When you fall in love, make sure you let that person know

 and, if it's real you won't need to play games. 

Alright, done being whatever it was I was feeling. 

Just scared for the future and for the children I'd like to raise.

(But you can't be afraid of things, you wouldn't get anywhere or be anyone.)

Don't let anything or anyone hold you back.

Life is wayyyyyyy too short,

-Ashley Nichole