Monday, January 25, 2010

Wright, write, right?!!?

As we grow up we learn the tricks of the trade, well at least I can say I have and that's what I thought for most people. I can admit when I'm wrong, and damn was I wrong.  The brainless antics people try and use amaze me. Some people actually think these elaborate fables are going to help them accomplish some sort of goal that they have. When in all reality, all they have is a fable. A fictitious story in their mind. It's sad, it really is. Reality is your friend. The more you accept it the better off you are.

You could say I'm a little perturbed, in more ways than one.
Try and get in the way of my future and you'll be more sorry than you were before.

Ballet is tonight,  don't know if I'm in the prancing mood. Actually I don't even know if I'm in the mood for anything. God, the wretched time of the month. Or maybe it's the weather, maybe a combo of both?

We leave for New Mexico in 2.5 weeks. Snowboarding road-trip. I'm working out so I can keep up with everyone else, considering this is my first time. Got my jacket, just need my pants! And being the nerdy girl that I am I've been looking up "how to snowboard" on youtube. Useless.

"And I told you to be patent, and I told you to be kind..."
-Ashley Nichole

Thursday, January 21, 2010

You know what?

This morning was wonderful. 
Kisses wake me, you never shake me. We wake up "early" and lay in bed. 
I jump around on the bed like I'm 5 again. 
I fall, you laugh.
I love you.
Every bit of you.

-Ashley Nichole

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Paper Airplane

High in the sky, but oh so fragile.

Time is nothing but numbers, fate is nothing short of a lie.
Life is what you make it, sometimes "do or die".

If ever your back is up against the wall,
Stick your hand in your pocket & call.

You're all I need, you're all I want.
Paper Airplane, please don't get shot.

Down where the dirt meets the trees, little bigs crawl.
Down where the bugs crawl is where they wait for you, wait for you to fall.

So Paper Airplane stay where you are
There isn't anyone or anything that can touch us
No nothing, not no one, not at all.

My Paper Airplane.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

2010, hold on, you better get a pen.

So let's look at life from '09.
First and for most, I lost one of the most important people in my life late November. Grandma was laid to rest the day before Thanksgiving. With that said I'm doing alright. There are certain things that trigger my sadness but more or less I'm able to control them.
I think 2009 was the year of trial and error. A lot of that happen, I'm not going to lie. Friends were made, friends were lost. Heart ache and heart break, here I am standing. Stronger than ever.

Now on to 2010,
I had the most amazing New Years for as far back as I can remember. I've found myself, and it's more complicated than I could have ever of imagined. I'm not going to say that people wouldn't understand because that would be a lie, BUT the majority of the robots out there wouldn't be able to fathom the thoughts that pass though my mind. It's a funny thing, life that is. If you are in the slightest bit attractive people under estimate the power you hold. Yeah, pretty girls don't have to stand in line. And yes, pretty girls get more attention. But does anyone think that maybe some of these pretty girls actually have a brain, and that indeed it does work?!?! WOW, ridiculous I know. I'll just let people figure that one out on their own. I'm self succeeding in ways I never knew possible.
The positive energy I hold power to is my strength and no longer my weakness. I know how to transfer it and use it to my advantage. I never understood what was going on, until now. Everyday we are given a new chance at life. Everyday we make choices that determine our future.

Waste no days on sadness, sorrow or gilt.
For time is too short and this breath you take could be your last.

With all my love,
Ashley Nichole