Tomorrow.

Tomorrow I embark on another journey.
Tomorrow I start a 7 day detox. I am not alone on this journey, I have a few friends joining.
Tomorrow is the start of:
NO:
*Meat
*Gluten
*Dairy
*Caffeine
*Alcohol
and negative thoughts or actions.
I'd like to live my life thinking that I try hard to give people the benefit of the doubt, but starting tomorrow I will try my hardest to live from the present on-ward. I feel that I'm taking a step in the right direction with this detox. It will take a lot of self control and consciousness, but I'm willing to give it my all.

I finished THE ALCHEMIST this weekend. It was rather easy to read. With only 180 something pages I was quite disappointed when it came to an end. Being 1 of the 5 summer books, I'd say I'm off to a good start with a great read.

We took a jug across to STL this weekend. I must say I had some of the most delicious food and drink a person could ask for; which is great considering I'm giving up a lot of that this week. Coming back home from a trip always feels nice. You're welcomed by the familiarity of your home, people, and places around you.  I needed this trip. Although it was very last minute and only 2.5 days long it helped me gain insight into myself and the world around me. It's such a refreshing feeling to re-learn things had once forgotten.

I am small, but for every action there is a reaction. My small action could effect something or someone in a much larger way than I'd even anticipate. So watch what you say and how you say it. Watch what you do and how you do it.

I'd like to encourage giving strangers compliments. Give 3 a day, and mean what you say.
It's amazing how it can make you feel.

Here goes nothing,
Ashley Nichole

Move. Me.

I have to feel

I have to be 

             moved

I hear you

Sometimes I feel you in my dreams. Haunting, creeping around like a thief in the night.

You only want one thing,

Me.

I can destroy you. You know I know how.

No one else holds that power, you've never let them.

I was worth it, I was worth the complexity of it all.

You lost it. You fucking lost all of it.

Your mind.

Your sanity. The thing that kept you most grounded,

Me.

Drifting aimlessly. Showered in sheer unintelligent conversation.

Fake follows you. Unavoidable.

You feel it now.

I'm sorry.

I hate to make you think of things that you avoid. 

I'm sorry to bring you back to reality.

I won,

You've never lost.

Never again will you make that mistake,
because

you can't.

And then some.

Is your life how you want it?
Yes?
 No?
If not, how can you make it exactly what you want?
Think about it.
Think about what you want= the positives, they'll drive you home.
Think about where you've been. All the amazing places you never thought you'd go, all the people you never though you'd meet. Think of all the assholes you had to triumph over and how good it felt to reach your goal.
Think about all the people you've shocked with your great will power for the good.
And then think about how much you've grown. All the mistakes you've made, but have learned from.

Life is one crazy ride. With all the struggles, people, and emotions that we're faced with everyday. Be thankful to be where you are. For if it wasn't for all of those things in your life it wouldn't be worth living.

Here's a shout-out to the good people.
The people who strive to be their best. Here's a shout out to the people who put others first. The selfless. The honest and trust worthy. The people who try their hardest to not be hypocrites. Here's to the people who don't nay-say. Here's to the people that will stand behind their friends through the good, bad and the horrible times.
To the few good people on the planet: I know you're out there. I believe. I believe because I know a few, but they just don't make 'em like they used to. (As my grandma would have said.)

FASHIONSNACKS store update!
I sold the vintage Gucci "Flora" Scarf that I found for 25 cents and turned it into $50!
BUT the Jackie-O RayBan sunglasses I found were chewed upon by the little dog I was sitting last weekend.
NO big deal, I'll use those for the lake/float trips.

The last big sale I had I made a profit of $700 in which was spent in a week on who knows what.
More clothes I think, and maybe food. I love this hobby. If I try really hard and find a lot of things this summer I might be able to quit my job come fall. THAT WOULD BE AMAZING! If I could only work for myself.

Summer budgettttttt where are youuuu?

Cheers,
Ashley Nichole